you promise me forever, and i pretend you mean it.

 

any way you slice it,  the people you can hardly count on will always be around, but the people you can count on are hardly there.

 

 

maybe tomorrow i’ll wake up and be you.

• i am frequently blabbering on about something completely useless.
• people always take pictures of me when i least expect it.
• i dont have the coolest clothes.
• my voice tends to be quite wretched.
• i have an abnormal nose, and an odd mouth.
• i make absurdly unattractive facial expressions. frequently.
• awkward things tend to plop out of my mouth before i realize what i say.
• i’ve never been friends with the pretty girls. or been one of them either.
• i am obscurely tall.
• i like to use words like: peculiar, obscene, absurd, and wretched.

Thing is: i am okay with that list up there. its the way things are, and they won’t ever change. i’m me. and no, i don’t like myself, but at least i accept that ill never be all things i want to be.

that was what was on my mind tonight. the end. i hope you all have a splendid tomorrow:)

love is not a victory march.

the title explains all.

teenage boys are a joke. there should be boys, and men. not this halfway-there-cheap imitation crap.

the feeling when you know you’ll never ever see someone again. like when they die. i’ve felt that feeling too much. the feeling when things  between you and someone you were close to will never  be the same. i felt that feeling too much today.the uncertainty of the carpet you walk on, because it has  been pulled out beneath you too many times over. thats how i always feel, and how i thought i never feel again, but then today came.

where some joke decided to pull the carpet from beneath me, and i fell harder than i did when falling for them. i am currently sitting on the floor. both ankles twisted, biting my tongue while trying to get up.

indian summers make up for lost time.

wonderlust. squanderrust. thundertrust.  pixiedust ; my brain isn’t working today.

i’m afraid it hasn’t for quite some time now. kind of like when you see one of those computers in the movies scrolling through an infinite number of word combinations , but it just can’t come up with the right one. either way. i love this song.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtAe4ULW4AM apparently  it was on the zombieland soundtrack. i did not know this.

this summer is going to be 2 months and 14 days.

adios mis amigos.

There is a poison in everyone, but who gets to taste it?

Everyone has more than one face and anyone who begs to differ is either speaking falsely or entirely too full of themselves. I know I am far from perfect. Haha soooo very far. But I never thought that the people I thought I knew best were too. People are duplicit by nature. Apple seeds contain cyanide. Just how friend’s words can cut.

why stop and smell the roses when there are only weeds?

my ideal world:

when summer comes when you need it most

with tea for breakfast and buttered toast.

horrible day. wonderful weather. happy morning. bad afternoon. contrast much?? yesss.

anyway. in my english honors class, we are going to read Julius Caesar. Being the nerd that i am, i went ahead and got the book, and i am currently reading it. i feel like quite the hypocrite because i always talk about how much i love Shakespeare, and here i am , not having read one of his most famous plays. ANYWAY! its pretty awesome. but of course anyone can tell you that. but Shakespeare is truly clever. haha you would never guess, would you? hah. i will go now.

ciao.

red and blue, black and white, i don’t believe in gray…

this world is full of things we’ll never have. i know this. that is also the exact reason why we daydream.

i will live in verona, italy one day. i hear they have a swell opera season in the summer.

I made friends with dr. Jekyll, and now it’s time to hide…

hello! If you are reading this, thank you. Haha I haven’t posted a thing in weeks! Haha! Well. I have this new dr. Dog cd, and..its the bees knees!! It reminds me of summer! Go listen to them. Now!! Yeah.. So.. I figured put recently that no matter how well you know someone, there is always a side of them you will never see. Or understand. There is always a mr. Hyde to the person you love best, and there’s always a the dr. Jekyll you wish you could be. Am I beyond tired? Have I spent too much time on my robert Louis Stevenson project?? Why yes. Goodnight.

odds and ends lets make amends, cheaters never prosper..

its been a very long week. maybe thats only because these past weeks have all been so equally dreadful they seem the same. *sigh* 2011 is not near as good as i expected it to be. high expectations tend to only lead to disappointment…

enough complaining! i apologize. i thought winter was just on the cusp of spring, and now more snow? mother nature has decided to trick us. i have realized i frequently write about the weather. most people find the seasons a bore but they are quite inspiring to me. so pardon my scrutiny of the climate.

my favorite music at the moment??

Diana Ross and The Supremes, Etta James, Ella Fitzgerald, and the like.

sorry for the lack of posts, but life is life.

i hope you have a wonderful day:)

 

 

 

 

 

welcome to tomorrow, may i please take your order?

all the days of this week have run together. everyday is a cookie-cutter copy from the last. everything is becoming too routine, and that is when i begin to get scared. i need change and i need it bad, i’ve looked around, but there’s none to be had.